Ah, why DO I DO this?
I know why.
Insecurity. Lack of control. Bad habits.
For those of you who know me, you’d probably agree that I love really hard. I have a hard time saying “no” because I want to accommodate everyone. I am super sensitive and (in no means in a prideful way) have a heart the size of Texas (all because of Jesus changing me). I’m compassionate and caring.
BUT I HAVE A MAJOR PROBLEM.
The first impression I put off is HORRIBLE and not very accurate. When I am put in social situations with men or people I feel uncomfortable with, my personality is altered. I turn into (moms-have your children look away from the screen) a super bitch. I am sarcastic and mean. Nothing encouraging comes out of my mouth. I don’t even recognize myself. I realize that it is a TOTALLY defense tactic to protect myself, but that does not make it OK. I want to be the same person…when I first meet you, until we’ve said our last good-byes.
I need help.
Do you have any advice?