Yes, I am joining the 6 billion people making resolutions that will more than likely NEVER actually get resolved. Sad, huh? Here they are…(by the way…it’s the 6 and ALREADY I have failed. HA). But for fun…
-Wake up at 5:00am and be in bed by 9:30. Sounds extreme, but I NEED a consistent schedule. 2 days a week I wake up at 6:30am and the other 5 I sleep as late as I want..so my sleep is ALWAYS thrown off. Not to mention…this will allow me to wake up..spend GOOD time with the Lord AND maybe get a workout in. THIS IS THE TOUGHEST.
-I’d like to be healthier (from the inside out).
-I want to go through therapy (if you know of anyone who is reasonably priced and GOOD, let me know) . I have some issues I’d like to tackle this year.
-Make some head way on getting out of debt. Those school loans STILL haunt me.
-Get involved in a group of people…who I can do life with. My inner circle moved away…sad, yes, I know.
What about you? I KNOW you have at least one?
until Christmas and I have YET to start shopping! Last year I was completely done by Thanksgiving! Oh, I’m suck a slacker!
Have you finished ALL of your shopping? When were you done?
I am SO excited! In 4 days I am having all 5 of my best friends over for a Christmas party! We do it every year. Normally we do some silly gift exchange, have a few appetizers, and spend some good quality time together. This year I am especially excited because there is a THEME! My mom is letting me use her china (which IS beautiful), and her crystal glasses! The girls have NO idea. I’m doing some Zuppa Tuscana soup, Italian salad, and wine (light but delicious). My goal this year is to make them each feel special…cherished..because they are! I just made this AMAZING center piece this morning before work. I woke up feeling unbelievably creative! AHHH.
Here are the lovely ladies…
Ashley (maroon shirt) wont be with us this year. She is living in Africa and will be greatly MISSED!!
I’ll try and take some pictures to post!
Probably one of the greatest songs…beautiful symbolism in his lyrics.
Oh, that Derek Webb.
If you could love me as a wife
and for my wedding gift, your life
Should that be all I?d ever need
or is there more I?m looking for
and should I read between the lines
and look for blessings in disguise
To make me handsome, rich, and wise
Is that really what you want
I am a whore I do confess
But I put you on just like a wedding dress
and I run down the aisle
and I run down the aisle
I?m a prodigal with no way home
but I put you on just like a ring of gold
and I run down the aisle to you
So could you love this bastard child
Though I don?t trust you to provide
With one hand in a pot of gold
and with the other in your side
I am so easily satisfied
by the call of lovers so less wild
That I would take a little cash
Over your very flesh and blood
Because money cannot buy
a husband?s jealous eye
When you have knowingly deceived his wife
Ah, why DO I DO this?
I know why.
Insecurity. Lack of control. Bad habits.
For those of you who know me, you’d probably agree that I love really hard. I have a hard time saying “no” because I want to accommodate everyone. I am super sensitive and (in no means in a prideful way) have a heart the size of Texas (all because of Jesus changing me). I’m compassionate and caring.
BUT I HAVE A MAJOR PROBLEM.
The first impression I put off is HORRIBLE and not very accurate. When I am put in social situations with men or people I feel uncomfortable with, my personality is altered. I turn into (moms-have your children look away from the screen) a super bitch. I am sarcastic and mean. Nothing encouraging comes out of my mouth. I don’t even recognize myself. I realize that it is a TOTALLY defense tactic to protect myself, but that does not make it OK. I want to be the same person…when I first meet you, until we’ve said our last good-byes.
I need help.
Do you have any advice?
Until last night, I had never actually transformed a blond into a fiery redhead. I was nervous. See, when one tries to do such a thing…the client ends up with PINK hair! I wasn’t sure of the outcome, but knew I had to face this fear. I mean, if it ended up being a jacked up color it could be “corrected”, right?
Alas, I absolutely LOVE it. It ended up being the EXACT shade of red that she wanted. Doesn’t it just light up her smile and give her that “edgy” look?
LOVE LOVE LOVE it.
On that note, if you need your hair did…you know where to find me!
I cannot even begin to express what all the Lord has been doing in my life in the last 2 weeks. I have never felt more down, more broken, more torn apart-yet, I am filled with SUCH joy and SUCH hope. God is faithful-so faithful. I am in a season of “getting healthy”…internally “healthy”. God is striping away ALL the ugly…all the lies and is replacing it with truth. He is riping open old scars that I closed myself before HE had a chance to extract all of the infection. I love that He let me fall on my face…because that left me with no choice BUT to look up.
I believe that He is making me healthy, so that I can help other sick people. What an unbelievable concept.
I am so thankful for you. I have truly found the one MY soul loves. I know that apart from you there is NO greater joy. ONLY YOU can satisfy this longing my heart. ONLY YOU can take all of my mess and make it into something beautiful. You don’t have to love me…but you DO. You have chosen me. You have called me. I am SO undeserving. I pray specifically that you would begin to stir emotions…stir gifts of your spirit in people. Shine your light so brightly that your people CAN’T ignore. YOU ARE THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE. YOU ARE ALPHA AND OMEGA. There is NONE but you.